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But I have to go to bed!
I have off on Saturday so I’ll finish it Friday night after work!
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skipping undeniable feeling for the night, sorry guys!
Yellow diamonds in the light,
Now we’re standing side by side…
I walked out of my house, Selena yelling behind me. I pulled my hood over my head and stuffed my hands in my pockets. I heard her angry yelling fade, asking me to come back, telling me that we still had things to talk about. We had nothing to talk about anymore. It was over and we both knew it, even before this moment. I walked for hours, my mind in a blank. Nothing was going right, the way it was supposed to be going. My life was supposed to be great, nothing was missing, but I felt more alone than ever. I found my way to the subway station. I got a metrocard and got on the next subway to the middle of Manhattan. The farther I went, the more I felt my thoughts chasing me, but I couldn’t stop. I just needed to run away to some town where no one will know me, start something new and feel brand new again, without all of these thoughts weighing down on me.
I took a seat on the Subway, it was late at night, the cars were almost empty. We made a stop and a girl walked in, looking flustered and worried. She bit her lip as she took a seat beside me and sighed deeply, relaxing slightly in her seat. She had long dark hair and gold skin, her eyes were flooded with concern as she stared as her folded hands on her lap. I turned around to face her while she was still deep in thought. I tapped her thigh to get her attention, and she looked at me, startled, as if she had just noticed I was sitting right beside her.
“Hey, uh, are you ok?” I asked, “You seem a little worried.”
“Uh, yeah,” she smiled a soft, fake smile, “I’m fine. No worries.”
“I’m pretty good at reading people,” I bit my lip, “I know you aren’t ok.”
“You don’t know anything about me,” she said coldly, “You’re just a stranger on the subway.”
“But you look like you could use a listening ear,” I said, “Seriously. There’s worry written across your face.”
“You can’t do anything for me,” she said, “So don’t worry about it.” I took her hand softly, expecting her to move away from me, but she kept her hand still and kept looking down at the floor.
It’s the way I’m feeling, I just can’t deny,
But I’ve got to let it go…
“I’m in a bad place right now too,” I said gently, “And maybe if we tell each other what’s going on, we can help each other out.” She bit her lip.
“Can I at least know your name?” She asked, quietly.
“I’m Justin,” I said.
“Well, I’m Sahalie,” she said, still with a pained look in her eyes.
“Nice to meet you,” I smiled and tightened my grip on her hand.
Two weeks later
We were still gone. I had bought an old car that I found in the city and together, with just the clothes on our backs drove to nowhere. In just these two weeks, I feel like I’ve identified with someone. That night that we met, she had left home. All she wanted was to live out her dream, but no one around her believed in what she could do. Her talents, her abilities, nobody seemed to take her seriously. But I believed in her. Her grace, her natural beauty and infectious smile. Her delicate laughter, the way she played with her hair instinctively, the way people were naturally drawn to her, she radiated throughout any room she went in. I knew she was meant to model. I held her hand tightly and drove with my other hand, staring off into the empty road, not even knowing where we were. We sat smiling to ourselves in the comfortable silence.
Turn away ‘cause I need you more,
Feel the heartbeat in my mind…
“I don’t ever want to go back,” she said, almost in a whisper.
“Eventually we’ll have to,” I said, “But hovering in this state of limbo, not knowing where anything is, not worrying about anyone else, my mind has never felt so clear.”
“But why do we have to go back?” She asked, “We’re perfectly happy with our lives right now, why does it ever have to be any different?”
“Because we have families,” I said, “And we have to face our fears, our pain, and we have responsibilities.”
“Why can’t we just keep running?” She asked, “Just running forever and never looking back?”
“Because running away doesn’t solve anything,” I said, “We’re stronger than that, and we can do it together.”
“Will you stay with me?” She asked, “Even when we go back?”
“Of course,” I said, “We may have been lost, confused, and hurting, but I still managed to meet such an incredible girl. My feelings won’t fade overnight, Sahalie,” I smiled and stroked her cheek, “I’ve known for two weeks, and I’m already falling for you.” She tightened her hand around mine and smiled.
“Then we’ll do it together,” she smiled, “Even in the dimmest of times, at least I know I’ll have you to guide me through them.”
We found love in a hopeless place…
“That’s what I like to hear,” I said and turned to kiss her softly.
After a while, the sky turned a dark shade of navy blue and she was sleeping with her head resting on the window. As I drove, the absence of light made the stars light up like fireworks. I pulled over on the side of the road when I noticed it was almost 3 AM. I softly lifted her from her seat and gently laid her down in the backseat. I pulled her close to me and held her tightly, feeling her light breath on my chest.
“I love you, babe,” I said quietly, kissing her forehead and letting myself drift off to sleep.
We found love in a hopeless place…
Moving on to the next one!
Lol it doesn't matter :D whatever you feel is the easiest for you (: - zan
My favorite song by Justin Bieber is every single song… hmm. I’ll see what I can do.
For Crystal :)
Girl, I’ve been all over the world,
Looking for you…
I’m known for taking what I think I deserve,
And you’re overdue…
I walked into the club, sitting at the bar. The bartender came up to me and I ordered my drink. I had invited Crystal to come with me, but I never heard back from her. I was always on the edge of my seat with her, she challenged me. It was driving me crazy, not knowing how she felt. She wouldn’t show me. Some days I was sure that she wanted me and others made me feel like she was impossible. Now I had showed up, hoping that maybe she would walk in. Drink after drink after drink and I still didn’t see her. I was feeling slightly drunk and the feeling of rejection started kicking in. I finally got up to walk out the door and I saw her walk in. Her hair nicely straightened, wearing a tight black dress. She smiled at me and I felt the pressure in my chest relax. She had showed up. She walked up to me and grabbed my collar.
What I’ve been missing in my life,
What I’ve been dreaming of,
You’ll be that girl,
You’ll be that girl,
“Sorry I’m late,” she smiled, biting her lip, “I just wanted to look nice for you.” I looked at her and licked my lips.
“You look… Wow,” I said, giving her a tight hug.
“I’m glad you like it,” she said. Suddenly, a tall, tan guy walked up to us, slicking his hair back. He moved me aside. Dude, what the fuck are you doing? He looked at Crystal and she smiled slyly at him. Somebody hold me back, I’m about to kick this fucker’s teeth in. I swallowed my anger and moved to the side as I noticed the look of interest in Crystal’s face.
“Hey,” the guy said, smiling at her, looking at her, it was driving me crazy, “You wanna dance?” Crystal turned to look at me and then turned back to the guy.
“Sure,” she smiled, “Why not?” He took her hand and led her out to the dance floor. I wore a straight face as he walked by with her, grabbing tight hold of her waist as he walked by me and smirked, bragging. You lay a hand on her and I will kick your ass.
They started dancing together as I sat at the bar, occasionally looking at them. I knew I couldn’t do anything, this was her choice and I didn’t own her. I felt defeated. What did I actually have on this dude? He was taller than me, he was in shape, I can’t compare. Fuck this shit…
Everything you want, so let me get up there,
I’m the baddest baby in the atmosphere…
I ran out the door to my car, I had taken such a long time to get ready, but I wanted to impress him. I took one last look at my hair in the rearview mirror and rushed over. I was almost an hour late, I hated to keep him waiting, but I just wanted to make sure I looked my best, I wanted to be something he didn’t want to lose. I felt myself start to breathe faster as I started getting closer and closer to the club. I got out of my car and I walked in, trying to suppress the nervousness building up inside. I saw him take a sip of his drink, looking slightly saddened. I knew it was my fault. I hoped that I could make it up to him tonight. He suddenly looked up and saw me as I walked inside. He sat up, a soft smile formed on his face. He waited for me an entire hour. I sighed and walked over, trying to look confident and strong even though I felt my knees shake just from having him close to me. Once I got up to him, in an effort to look sassy and fearless, I grabbed him by the collar, pulling him closer to me. His face was only inches from mine, making it hard to breathe knowing how close I had him.
“Sorry I’m late,” I said softly, biting my lip, “I just wanted to look nice for you.” He licked his lips and I felt his sweatly palm in my hand. I wondered if he was as nervous as I was.
“You look… Wow,” He said, with a shy expression on his face and then pulled me into him fro a hug. As I felt his arms tighten around my waist, I felt like I was going to melt. I smiled to myself as he held me, I wanted to pause this moment and live in it forever. As he pulled away, I felt like I needed to catch my breath.
“I’m glad you like it,” I smiled and suddenly a guy came up to us, a tall, douche-y looking guy. He gave Justin a little shove to the side, I could see the ferocity in Justin’s eyes as he stared the guy down, he was angry. Is he jealous? Hmm.. To test my theory, I smiled at the this unknown guy. I wasn’t into him at all, I saw the look in his eyes, that cocky “I can have whoever I want” attitude. His appearance alone made me feel like he was way too full of himself, he was nothing compared to the beautiful boy who had invited me here. The only reason I went along with it is because I wanted to see Justin react, I hoped that maybe he would come along and claim me, that he would finally show me that he wanted me, even if it was obvious already that we had feelings for each other.
The guy asked me to dance, and Justin only showed a look of hatred towards him. I agreed to dance with him, he still had time to do something. He just sat on a stool at the bar and glared in our direction. Come on, Justin, come on…
I kept looking over, only to keep seeing the same thing. Him grabbing her hips, her body moving along with him. I felt the anger build up inside me by the minute. What am I still doing here? She’s here with me, damn it. I’m going over there. With a clenched fist, I got up and walked over to her. I pushed him away from her without making eye contact with him and grabbed her hands.
“No,” I said, “No more. You’re here with me.”
“I don’t even know why you let him take me away in the first place,” she giggled. Suddenly, the guy tapped my shoulder.
“We were dancing here,” he said, challenging me, “You can go back to where you were now.”
“Fuck off,” I said, “She was here with me, and the only person she’s dancing with tonight is me. I left my bar stool warmed up for you.” He walked away annoyed and I finally turned to her again. She looked simply enchanting. We stood in the middle of the dance floor, not moving, not saying a word, just looking at each other and smiling. Suddenly she burst out in laughter and I couldn’t help but join in. As I held her hands in mine, we laughed together, not really knowing at what, but laughing. Suddenly, she stopped and looked at me.
You make me feel that,
La la la la la…
“I’m glad you finally came over here,” she said, “I’m sorry if I was late earlier, Justin.”
“It’s ok,” I said, “You’re here now, aren’t you?”
“Well, yeah,” she smiled, “But still. I just didn’t want you to think it was because I didn’t want to come, it wasn’t on purpose.”
“It doesn’t matter to me now, Crys,” I said, pulling her closer to me, with loud bass in the background, “I’m just glad you came.”
“I’ve been wanting to do this all night,” she said and suddenly, she grabbed my collar and pulled me into her, I felt her soft kiss and she gave me a playful bite and tug on my lip, making me smile as I kissed her.
Tell me what you want so we can do just what you like…
“You read my mind,” I said, as I pulled away, “I know I’m not imagining this. I know how I feel and right now, my heart is pounding. Not because of the loud music, but because you’re with me, close, our skin is touching. Every time I talk to you feels like the first time, I just know something is going on.”
Get a little closer to me, girl and you’ll understand…
‘Cause if you want a guy that knows what you need,
Well, then I’m your man…
“I felt it too,” she smiled shyly, “I just didn’t think you thought of me like that.”
“Well, I do,” I said, “I know what I want and I’m taking it.” Then, I pulled her onto my lips again. We stood perfectly still, our lips moving together in the midst of all of the dancing and loud music, and even then, it felt… Right.
You make me feel that
La la la la la…
LULZ THE IRONY
AND IT REALLY LOOKS LIKE JUSTIN BIEBER OMG COME TO ME